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The person has chosen to be a frog who turned into a TOAD, instead of becoming a 'prince'!
What is being described next, after the introduction to the 'Higher Self' contact, is so completely bonkers it is almost a joke to describe it.
The 'Malevolent Energy'.
(Quick summary) Briefly, the Higher Self of someone made contact. This level was trapped with a 'lower self' level which was killing it's True Self. The True Level knew enough to seek help. The 'lower self' was a polar opposite of how the True Self showed itself. This began in March 2022.
Very shortly after that there were terrible energies noticeable and for the rest of my time here, these really awful energies were experienced while at the same time, there was an amazing experience from the 'Higher Self' and from 'Higher Up'.
The entire process was a distressed 'Higher Self' showing me a disturbed 'lower self'.
Even if this description seems somewhat flakey, it became apparent that there were very real reasons for the feeling of 'bad energies'.
The first indications began around the time of October 2022 when the person's interactions with a female guest here were suprisingly sleazy. His comments in the common area below the balcony/verandah, which could easily be heard were, "was she watching porno movies" and that kind of thing.
This was when the sleaze aspect was the appropriate word, but very unexpected. It had never been thought that this person was like that.
This is also why this work says the person does not know his assets, and has chosen to become a Toad.
 This page is still being perfected! Part comedy and part serious. This is going in the BOOK!
While this is not giving any kind of diagnosis, it is providing a very detailed description of something.
***Everything has to be placed within the context of the 'Higher Self' contact and what that showed.
BTW from the first day I saw the photos of this place with this person jumping into the water with about 3 or 4 girls, my nickname for the person was 'f..ckwit'. (However, even this was better than the weird photos for the Vallarta hostel place which were so peculiar I cancelled the booking and changed to this one.)
After September 25th/26th the first year I was here, and the amazing 15 hours of unbroken 'soul' contact,
the 'Dark Force' stepped in to break the contact - breaking it from the side of the HS person, but also showing that it existed.
Until that point, during those 2 days, there had been a considerable 'soul overlap' with me and this 'HS person', which means what it says.
With something like this the person is at that time, aligned with its SOUL level and because of the overlap with me, there is quite a lot of telepathic communication.. That is how it was that evening. This was also very evident at the time when I was recovering from being very sick. The person was aligned with the True Self, and because of the 'soul overlap' - because the Higher Self soul level is aligned with me - there was a lot of telepathy - this means I could hear the thoughts as if spoken words.
But on that evening of Sept. 25th I would not have thought there was the connection. The only reason I knew was because there was telepathic communication from this person as I walked out, and then the 15 hours of soul connection, which I called 'opium effect' began.
After the 'Dark Force' had revealed its existence on Sept. 26th, and after exactly 6 months of high level introductory 'information' about the situation,
after that 6 months mark, the persona of the 'dark force' control began to show itself within the person. This is not to suggest that the 'dark force' is an excuse for how the person actually is, but it was a way of describing it.
 Just small amounts at first, including a slightly crazed look in the eyes as it switched into something
and certainly horrible to see. This was from around October 2022 and it was sleazy while the real crazed look was, to me, more notieable later. There will be more detail in Part 2 of this article. In fact it was very much like a 'demon' had stepped in.
Much of all of it is from the actual things said by the person himself about how he is.
The things he said about himself in the 'in public' talks.
It is possible that actually writing about this here could easily seem like it was unfair comment, but that is not the case if you actually witness it happening. That is what was so surprising about it.
The person had not behaved earlier, like the 'unusual' person that began to show after the introduction phase. It would more easily seem that it could not have been what it was. What really counts is that the person is capable of behaving in this way, and does, no matter how much he calms down, or tries better in other circumstances.
I also have to say that I was surprisingly slow in grasping the reality. The behaviour with the female guest from October 2022 was definitely a clear indication, but if I chose to be charitable about that, the first of the loud talks in the open public area which took place in January 2023 should have registered more with me! Then of all things the behaviour in March with the volunteer then the very public 'demon talk' at the end of March should have cinched it.
The person absolutely never showed itself as the character covered in the 'demon' section. The person originally appeared to be quite gentle. When someone said something quite angrily, he just looked down in a humble and gentle way.
Basically, the first 6 months here was the 'Higher Self' level introduction to the situation, that it needed help with clearing a massive problem with its 'lower self'.
When it was written that I had always thought the Lower Self person was a person who had experienced the world, and therefore probably handled it all in the way you would expect of a mature functioning person, I had thought the person was behaving in the way discussed because the person thought it was cool or normal, learned from the people he had been around - which appears to be mostly low level because others don't behave in that way. Therefore it was something to fairly diplomatically draw the person's attention to. In other words, misguided.
But it wasn't that. This was either a very deliberate and calculated behaviour of someone who was damaged in some way, and was behaving in a very anti-social and sick manner (the ASPD - personality disorder). which formerly was called sociopath or psychopath OR it was a very real 'dark force or entity - which may be an explanation but is not used as an excuse.
Ultimately a person DECIDES how the person is to be by conscience, by the level of development and by which way the person has CHOSEN to be 'marked'.
The next descriptions are not covering the 'everyday self', this is the 'Demon' and the bizarre 'in public' obscene talks.
These are descriptions of the very unexpected way this person was talking in public. From the second one they were recorded.
The second 'in public' obscene conversation shows exactly the description covered in the 'Demon' link.
But the first time I heard such an in public talk was early January 2023 and I thought the person had somehow got caught in an inappropriate conversation led by others. There had been some 'creepy' stuff in the months before, but I rationalized this.
The first "unusual" in public conversation I heard was in early January 2023 and I assumed that the person had got stuck in a difficult conversation and although what was said by him was surprising, I did think this was a normal person who was just stuck with the conversation. This did involve a female, from Canada who was about 32, and some others (there are always a few people involved.) The conversation was what you would expect at 'schoolboy level', and it seemed to be fueled by this utterly stupid female who was describing how 'comfortable she was with her sexuality'. The sort of thing you hear from female pop stars who have had to fulfill their contract requirements to become very rich and famous. It is what the singer Christina Aguilera said.
Others here did notice this, and it was one of these who sent on to me the hostel review of Feb. 2016. That review, which I received later, was really shocking. But at that time I assumed it was just an unfortunate situation because there can always be times when a fruitloop does not know how to behave in a public place and then you have to mindfully extricate yourself from it.
It can also be added now that the 'HS person' did have that slightly crazed look in his eyes because he came up to the balcony/verandah area for something, which was where I was sitting, and I noticed that. And noted it. The reason was because I was so extremely surprised by the conversation taking place! And within the context of the Higher Up communication.
I had seen, and heard, some odd behaviour before (with the girl who had moved in which was mentioned in the first page on this) but I hadn't seen this kind of crazed look.
The second time an 'in public' exhibition like this happened, being accidentally caught in the conversation clearly was not the case.
It seriously began some of the most sad and disappointing reality checks I had ever had to go through. The character did match the person described in the hostel review for February 2016.
Another 'in public' talk on the same level was with a circle of young females, in a sexually explicit conversation led by him, raising questions at what point in a guest's registration to stay here do these things get arranged? What sparks the idea that any of these people, unknown, newly arrived guests, would be up for this? What are the parameters of being a guest amongst a 'level playing field' of guests?. What is acceptable for all customers?
***When I walked past the office/bedroom shortly afterwards, to go out, it sounded like he had scored from that. It seemed like a few screeches but that may not be the case. It made me feel sick to my stomach that this person would behave in that way, if that is what took place. I had thought so much better of this person.
The 'trigger' refers to triggering what sets off the bizarre behaviour.
The point of commenting on the behaviour is that these are GUESTS or VOLUNTEERS, NOT people met in a club or bar.
So, this is talking about when new guests or volunteers arrive. The profile appears to be blonde, then it is young but specifically the age group of '9 years younger than when the person married', then any young girls, then it's any skank, and the best is when its a blonde, young, nice girl, from Europe. . 
Didn't hear any more of the 'in public' talks but the "unusual" behavior did continue. Its not just volunteers who get a free holiday here with free tours, it also seemed to include any group of girls unless they had all been accepted as volunteers and the place was mostly filled out with volunteers! But some of that was very creepy - because it all was crazy throughout that time. All of it. That was the case until maybe early July.
I rationalized this stuff based on the 'Higher Self' communication.
The obvious crazy high this person gets
- as happened with the example of having had some need to take off the trousers he was wearing and then prance around in the common area of the hostel in his underpants and then a towel as mentioned elsewhere - demonstrates the problem the 'Higher Self' was getting at
This was after midnight and the street was empty and quiet, but the person was seen walking about the street in his underpants.
Also after these things, he often makes a phone call to someone probably because he has been so energized by it. This also was how it was after the 3rd in public obscene talk which is covered more in the second page on this. And also after a drunken Saturday night out, could have been around 4 am and the person was so extremely loud it not only woke me, but I thought he was out in the street shouting like a crazy person.
In September 2023 I left to go to Malaysia and see how things would be for returning to live in Southeast Asia. Things were not good and countries have made it more difficult and personally invasive to stay long term. I used to just buy a 1 year visa for the country I had been living in, but now there are requirements to register you are visiting Singapore, or Malaysia and travel is no longer a basic human right. I found things difficult, and returned to Mexico in March 2024.
After returning to PV I continued to think the person was aware of the 'unacceptable behaviour' stuff and in the process of clearing through it.
Since I returned to Mexico in mid March I saw an even worse version of the person than the one before.
It was parts of what had been seen before, and there was another in public obscene talk, and that was the same character as before.
Until then, I had still considered that that stuff was some kind of unusual behaviour triggered by some kind of misguided feelings. But in reality it was the same thing that was before.
It was another state because it is like the brain switches into it. But it actually happens a lot, whenever the trigger situation is there. That can happen very regularly indeed at a hostel where new batches of girls arrive all the time, and also new batches of volunteers. It is 'Predator's Paradise'!
This showed most when the Dutch girl arrived as someone who apparently 'fit the profile'. A nice enough girl and apparently the type which triggered the predator into action. She was blonde but not young, she was 30, and nice, average looking. *This is mentioned because there is never anything special in the looks of the girls, and yet this person has behaved as if he can pick and choose between the greatest looking girls on earth.
It does appear that here again was the something that fired up the HS person and inspired the first obscene public talk I witnessed for 2024.
It is incomprehensible what must be in this person's mind to speak in this way to guests.
The talk was loud, and about what he describes as his obvious indiscrimminate behaviour, or that he wanted to make it look like that. It was also 'bragging' about his drug use, apparently in order to be admired. This was that he liked cocaine. And he is in his 40's! This was talking to new guests who had just arrived!
The episode happened within 2 months of my return to PV so I don't know what went before in that time during the 6 months I was in Asia. Now I dread to think. But my hope had been that he had gained some awareness in order to move forward.
 There is a Part 2 to this page.
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