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I'm not really focussed on the BOOK, and maybe its a struggle to add to it. So, there are times when 'energies' come into the planet and it really makes things interesting. This can be with information to do with what is happening with the changes to the planet, but just having that come in is like an energy boost. There has not even been anything about the planet for a long time. I might experiment with some writing to see if I can find anything to add that covers some of what was good - if the person could find his 'Real Self'.

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So it was, and always will be an enduring and always comment worthy experience to have had those 'comms.' and everything which I began the BOOK about.

But right now all of it is like a distant memory or another life. I don't know that the BOOK can go anywhere because it was about a 'beautiful soul' and a soulmate connection - and that does not happen very often for anyone. And he was asleep. But also possessed by a 'Dark Force' - and I sure as hell am not planning to come back into this world reality to live here.

So really, the magic and gift that it was, ended up with a clueless person who failed.

OR maybe he is going to boot out the 'Dark Force'.

 

By late 2022 I had more awareness about the HS person at the 'false self' level.

The person who at the Soul Level was so wonderful, in everyday life chose to be everyday average. Also such gutter level stuff, and I cannot understand what he thought he got out of that. or all those backpacker volunteers. Did he want to be a 'bad boy'?! What was a person such as this doing with these 'holiday makers' who really he should be regarding on the level they actually are. What was he doing what he did for? I cannot understand it. I believe he was proud of it and thought it was somehow 'good'.

I do have to be careful with my words and I do not want to write about these girls going on their backpacking holidays or as volunteers. I truly don't want to add comments on them or that. They're just girls on holiday. But what was he thinking of?

So, the contact was definitely a strange thing to happen - yet NOT when you see the SOUL Level.

 

My impression was that the HS person did not seem to be anything particular to look at, like you wouldn't look twice at him. He looked very rough and quite a lot overweight. That is how I saw him to be when I arrived there. The going round without a shirt on was awful to see. It is very inconsiderate to be out like that, but I guess not for the 'holiday makers' because they all fit into basically one predicatable and exploitable category. Which is why someone running a hostel, and at his age, because he was obviously in his 40's, needs to be interested in a different class of female. He could do much better. As for the no shirt look he liked, in 2022 he was overweight. So I was very surprised by the connection that happened within the first days of being there.

Beyond this I want to write about all that was good. I was shown a lovely person,

and as I said, this happened because this was a soulmate connection from other lifetimes - as far as I could tell from the comms which came in - and it was important.

So I suppose I looked more carefully about this person and I didn't think he was anyone who was lewd and lecherous about females (like Trump's style was). I didn't think that. That is why his lewd behaviour in public from 2023 really surprised me. As said, I thought he had just become caught in a conversation that became embarrassing. This is the one, early January 2023 with the Canadian girl, 32 years old, who kept saying how she was "comfortable with her sexuality". What a stupid thing to say!

It is so stupid that it is almost beyond belief. What does that mean? We are not run by our hormones - which is reverse consciousness. When we actually fall in love with someone, then everyone is automatically "comfortable with their sexuality". But it is also a private thing because the rest of us don't want to know about it. This has been covered before, because the listener then has a mental image of the person and that is not necessarily appealing to everyone. It can be one of the most sick making turn offs, to have to visualize that.

Anyway, she and the Higher Self person did go out, so maybe she was a volunteer, or perhaps as the guest she promoted how ''comfortable she was with her sexuality" that he jumped to it. I was still up on the computer when they came back. I did see her by the lockers, and she was completely smashed, but I don't know how far he 'jumped to it'. I do know they were talking, but of course, that could have been after a quick blow job, and so on. Later experience showed that he did behave like that with anything.

But I didn't know that during 2022, but from how he spoke to people I strongly realized that this person should take responsibility for things.

Because he didn't take responsibility. He left it to others. Like the 'but she didn't ask for sex' comment. That is a very dangerous thing, with warning 'red lights' flashing. This is something he's got wrong. It's why he spoke so horribly harshly and unkindly to the blonde not very good looking Russian girl there at that time who really did like him. She was in tears about it, obviously he'd humiliated her. Because that is one of the things he would do. Really bad.

He also has lots of contempt for females, based on what he's actually got wrong. This is a very bad thing.

So, there was something about his attitude and probably his irritable speaking to others, that led to the decision that he must take responsibility for anything. I chose to remain cautious in speaking to him.

Also because in 2022, I was being shown many lovely things about him.

Then around the beginning of April, the girlfriend arrived. He changed completely. Not as in being better behaved because she was there, but because of something else. I think he knew that it wasn't going to work out with the girlfriend. *Btw, it wasn't her who caused him to crash his car. It was what the reality was.

Once the comms from 'Higher Up' had started, and even before that when the actual communication from the Higher Self of the person himself started, things were different. The girlfriend couldn't work. It ended in early July. I wasn't at the accommodation, I had done the visa renewal to Guatemala in May, then found somewhere to stay near the Malecon. They were doing renovations so I had better prices.

However the energy from the HS person early in July was extremely happy, and I knew she had gone. Whatever he thought he thought, he was actually very happy. I can say this as an absolute fact - and I wasn't even at the premises.

I believe in August he did try to 'try again', was even going to close the hostel for a week or some days, but she apparently told him to get lost. She was no doubt pretty angry with him.

 

So, What Was Beautiful and Lovely Enough to Write the BOOK?

There was a greater story within a greater and truer reality, and that was what was so beautiful. Yet the everyday level of the person seemed to do everything possible to do the opposite.

However, in July the HS person was literally 'jumping through hoops' with happiness at the time the girlfriend left him. That's the reality!

For this reason ALL of the awful stuff he did was really for the same 'dark energy' reason. I do have the date in August when he tried the "I'll try again" meeting with the girlfriend. I haven't got it to hand. Later in August, around the 3rd week but perhaps 4th week.

Of course, after that bombed, he started on someone else. That was happening at September 25th and the time I mentioned when I walked passed his office to walk down to where I had my other place on the Malecon. An awful waste of money for me. This is when the telepathy was very strong from him, and it was about me going out obviously to stay somewhere else. Then followed the 15 hours of Soul Level connection which didn't end until the 'dark force' or fear, broke it at 1 pm the next day.

This is why I know that it was Tuesday Sept. 27th that I began the 'Sound Project' because it was a very obvious 'dark energy' that had broken the soul connection. It can only be said again, this was a Soul Mate connection. Whether I liked it or not, that's what it was. And on most levels I didn't like what was unfolding but on the SOUL level I knew the truth of the person.

So, what would follow on from after a massive connection like that? He accelerated the chatty friendship with the Russian hairpiece girl who I think would be a hostess or receptionist at a club, but there was also the time when she must have had some videos, those discs they had (DVD's!) because he was out sleazily saying "Is that porno"? That was disturbing to hear. It was the first time I had seen him speaking on that level. Very disturbing.

The chatty friendship did seem to go on for weeks, but then the music started with the pumping raunchy stuff which suggested he'd decided to get it on with the hairpiece girl. It was like he wanted it to be a replacement for the girlfriend, probably trying to pretend he was 'in love'.

 

Again, Where Was the Beautiful and Lovely Stuff About Him!

Actually most of that happened earlier in 2022. After all, only that was the real story.

It was also there after I had been very ill at the end of January 2023, and again after his mother had visited a second time in July 2023. It was there in the August, but something freaked him. It was also there in 2024 even with the 'Fear' and 'Dark Force' so much in control. There was good stuff after I returned from renewing the visa in Tijuana in August 2024. That was the flight I'd booked almost in error because I didn't think I could use my card online, yet the booking went through. With booking that - and it was really going against how I felt - but 'Higher Up' was 'jumping through hoops' about it.

Obviously the time in November 2024 was not a beautiful sight. The person was bonkers. But as I said just before Nov. 13th 2024 the energy and connection was again very good. It would be, because this was a Soulmate connection. Which is why he began the whining, stressed out voice that I heard under the window that day, and why he went out and got drunk and brought back a person for his 'other' business. It's why he was loud and drinking when I came into the hostel that evening and was going to pay the next month's rent, but he was too crazy. And of course why November 14th happened and the even worse on the 15th.

Before mentioning that, still in 2023, I was sent a review for the hostel where the girl who wrote the review covered a few very sordid points, of him pushing mushrooms on the girls to take, and also bragging how he'd make out with the guests. Like unbelievable! I think this was sent to me after the 2nd lewd and obscene in public talk from this person, where he was bragging about seducing girls then they would 'fall in love with him'. The volunteer at that time, not present for that talk, was Sarah from Austria who was a nice girl. This is dreadful to go over, he's one very sick person.

All of this was horrible to know, especially when there was this 'Higher Up' communication showing a sensitive soul who wanted to find 'true love' but for some reason had learned to behave like this.

Unfortunately, it has proved to be a bit difficult this time, to really get to the 'good' - which I do know is there!

So, although I know he says to the volunteers to pretend its just a 'professional relationhip' all business, on Nov. 14th, I did know he'd taken the volunteer out because she was unusually getting ready to go out. Of course he might have been on 3 months 'good behaviour' after being reported, and it had just ended. But he still did what he did. I didn't know her date was with him, I just saw them leaving together, then came back together. Ugly little thing and not ever very nice, more like the black conehead French teacher. But I don't want to add comments on these girls. About an hour for the date and they were back and they were at it. First she'd gone up to the dog's bowl for something and he came out of his bedroom telling her to get in there. Then there was the half time drink from the fridge when he came out in his blue jocks. While I was sitting in the seating area reading.

Then on the 15th, she went to his room as he had instructed (he'd had another customer round and was making fun of her with him) she'd gone upstairs and didn't know that. He was careless because obviously he does this and pretends its all business with the volunteer, but he was careless, and she told him there was someone sitting in the garden. Which was me. And I have already written how sleazy it was, and also that while he was doing it I was getting the energy of it.

Obviously there is a reason why that was. On the Saturday I arranged to move somewhere else. I did not want to be the only guest in the dorm with the volunteer.

Nor did I want to actually feel the energy of them making out (that's a terrible thing to experience). The other place was a disaster, but I left my longterm accommodation on the Tuesday which was the earliest I could. It was Nov. 19th.

I still had to wait to February to leave Mexico and there were two openings to return to the hostel during that time. I just couldn't do it.

I have had soul level connections with others, but the soulmate connection is extremely rare. It is a gift you are given, and it is constant thing. It doesn't change because it is from the only levels that are real. It is true and lasting, and ever increasing Love. It can be lost though. It can be thrown away.

So I should go back to the actual Soul Level connections. Now these can be connections with people at the soul level. It's like feeling the love in someone's heart. But with this, it was clearly shown to be soulmate and how the person could remove this entity 'Dark Force' - which is responsible for this insane behaviour. Which is nuts.

Also it showed a person who was very afraid to give his heart, and who could not love.

 

 

 

 

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